Haha... I can see how that's vague.
"It"means sex baby
I wanted that sweet marital hanky panky - at least more than a once a year mercy fuck.
I've had a lot of dates like OP's - and I was some sort of absolute pervert for suggesting we go to a love hotel, even though we went to lots when we were dating.
The sad thing is that I don't even think he was getting it elsewhere - he just turned it off. And I didn't suddenly get absolutely hideous - I was still getting plenty of attention from men, just not my husband.
I guess it was the classic madonna/whore bullshit, combined with the fucked up transitional way of looking at marriage.
When I finally left him he couldn't believe it and ranted about how hard he had worked to support the family.
I guess that was supposed to make up for the lack of sex and intimacy and the utter miserable loneliness.