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where you don't belong?
I don't know. I've lived in Japan for almost 6 years now and I still feel like a foreigner for some reason.
I have 3 friends, 2 in highschool and 1 in college who would often tell me things like "You don't have to feel like that. You're japanese! You look like one, you act like one and you definitely are one! Just because you grew up in another country doesn't mean you don't belong here anymore. Cheer up!"
I appreciate and love all of them. But sometimes, I often get feelings like I don't belong here or emotions that I still FEEL like a foreigner. Because of my mom and dad's divorce, I grew up in the care of my relatives in Austin, Texas for the most of my life. I've only decided to come back to Japan because my mother wanted me to be with her. At first, I declined her offer and wanted to stay in America because that is where I was more adapted and all my friends were there. I'm not saying I haven't adapted to the japanese way of life, it's just that because I never grew up here, never went to school here or experienced most of the culture and lifestyle of living here, I guess I've always felt like an outsider still.
My mom would often tell me that I was just over-thinking everything and that since I'm a fully recognized japanese, I shouldn't have to feel that way, but what she doesn't understand is that if you grew up in a place where you pretty much spent the majority of your life in, and then all of a sudden you get thrown into a whole new world and must start again anew, it kinda puts me a little bit uneasy.
Maybe I'm just bad at adapting.
Maybe I am just over thinking it.
Sorry for the rant, but I've been wanting to release this in a place where I know that some people might feel the same way.
Thanks for reading.
I don't know. I've lived in Japan for almost 6 years now and I still feel like a foreigner for some reason.
I have 3 friends, 2 in highschool and 1 in college who would often tell me things like "You don't have to feel like that. You're japanese! You look like one, you act like one and you definitely are one! Just because you grew up in another country doesn't mean you don't belong here anymore. Cheer up!"
I appreciate and love all of them. But sometimes, I often get feelings like I don't belong here or emotions that I still FEEL like a foreigner. Because of my mom and dad's divorce, I grew up in the care of my relatives in Austin, Texas for the most of my life. I've only decided to come back to Japan because my mother wanted me to be with her. At first, I declined her offer and wanted to stay in America because that is where I was more adapted and all my friends were there. I'm not saying I haven't adapted to the japanese way of life, it's just that because I never grew up here, never went to school here or experienced most of the culture and lifestyle of living here, I guess I've always felt like an outsider still.
My mom would often tell me that I was just over-thinking everything and that since I'm a fully recognized japanese, I shouldn't have to feel that way, but what she doesn't understand is that if you grew up in a place where you pretty much spent the majority of your life in, and then all of a sudden you get thrown into a whole new world and must start again anew, it kinda puts me a little bit uneasy.
Maybe I'm just bad at adapting.
Maybe I am just over thinking it.
Sorry for the rant, but I've been wanting to release this in a place where I know that some people might feel the same way.
Thanks for reading.
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